6.24

I am usually the type of person who walks with a purpose. My mom taught me that that’s how you get people to respect you, and also how you get your heart rate up. These are all good things. But now, I walk to and from the grocery store and around the park and across the sidewalk from older couples with absolutely no destination in mind. I count the cracks between sidewalk panels just to give my walks a purpose, but there’s thousands, and that makes me feel crazy. It’s frustrating for me to walk without a destination in mind, to continue these walks without an end to this in sight. Most of the time I just want to curl in bed but then I remember my mom telling me to get my heart rate up. When this is all done, I will take a 10 minute walk to class, and feel like I accomplished a trip to the moon.

 

7.2

Today there were several little new ducklings in the park I go to two blocks down! I sat and watched them for several minutes, and sent some photos to my grandma. It made me feel a little more connected to her. 

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7.9 

I turned twenty one so I went on a long, long walk. I house hunted throughout the nice streets several blocks down from my apartment and fantasized about owning one of them twenty one years from now. My dream house has turrets and a lot of circular windows and day beds. It would likely be brown or gray, like an English countryside cottage, but I’m open to a color as well.

 

7.20

The baby ducklings were learning how to dive today in the park. There were little koi fish in there with them too, so I watched them twirl around for a while. A few couples passed around me. A few runners came my way too, but I held my breath as they huffed and wheezed past me. Am I bad for not running? Running is terrible. 

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7.24

I’ve been doing some yoga with friends for the heart rate, but I still prefer walking by myself. Something about walking alone makes me feel so incredibly solid, like with every step I can feel my feet growing roots into the ground that get ripped up again and again. If I stood long enough in one spot, I would become a tree.